Yet, sometimes I do feel weighed down by the needs of those around me. It is a constant struggle of living here - of longing to help - and knowing that "I can't help everyone." It is hard. I want to help. I long to help. Yet, the constant stream of people, needing help with school tuition, asking for work and those who have added family members due to the earthquake and thus, having more mouths to feed - can be overwhelming. The needs are great. Many who are coming to me are my FRIENDS! I want to help them - to ease their burdens. I love them. As the Lord blesses us - I continue to pour out His blessing unto those around me. But, I must also continually remind myself -- that I am not God's solution for every need that I long to fill. We are ONE Body- All acting together for His good plan. There may be times that I am to help someone, but at other times -it may be that the Lord desires to reveal Himself to that person in another way. I have to remember to release the pressure that I feel to help those around me to the feet of my Father; and continually rest in Him and trust in Him to guide, direct, and provide.
I often hestitate, okay, actually, I almost ALWAYS hestitate to post stories of NEED on my blog - because I do not want anyone to feel pressured to help. You know those long silences in my blogs, well, besides the fact that I am extremely busy - those silences are also a result of my not wanting to post the "stress" side of what I see, feel, do. I just want to post the good stuff. But that is not my life. My life is the hard stuff too.
In my desire not to whine or complain and in my effort to not come across as "pushy" with all the needs that are here - I simply do not mention them.
I feel a need to try to equalize my blogs a little more. To share the AWESOME news of God's goodness - but also sometimes, the hard stuff needs to be shared so that you can pray and understand life here a little bit better.
